Oh Oh Sugar Spell It Out

Listening to music getting really motivated to have a successful life at any cost.

"I took the stars from my eyes, and then I made a map I knew that somehow, I could find my way back"

 I need to start writing more, I do not know where my head has been lately. I want to get a tattoo I have it partially thought through, the complete idea is still up in the air. It involves the lyrics from a FATM song, and Snow White. It also reflects my conflict with my father's demise, and the closure I had to obtain on my own. I am working on losing some weight currently, so alas it will be put on the burners for quite some time. I know my father had his reasons for being against tattoos, and that is fine. But I also know he would have appreciated the reasons for my tattoo.

"People are always shouting they want to create a better future. It's not true. The future is an apathetic void of no interest to anyone. The past is full of life, eager to irritate us, provoke and insult us, tempt us to destroy or repaint it. The only reason people want to be masters of the future is to change the past."

Intoxicated with the madness, I'm in love with my sadness

Don't you Call Anybody Else Baby

"i been meek, and hard like an oak, i seen pretty people disappear like smoke. friends will arrive, friends will disappear. if you want me, honey baby, i'll be here."

The sound of my heart beating like a hammer against cloth

 The Three D's

First Grandpa Ed- Road Trip to Iowa in the middle of the night, during a blizzard, whilst I was very far along in the conception category. Three Years Ago Today

Then My Father- Two Years Ago Today, blissfully in his sleep, in his bed, in his room, in our house.

Finally My Great Uncle-Passed in his sleep just like my father, in an retirement home, in the middle of the night One Year Ago Today